When your hearts been broken.
You block out everyone.
You feel so tired, because you havenít slept in forever.
You know that heíll be in your dreams.
But you donít want to stay awake laying in your bed crying either.
Youíre starving, but you canít eat.
Because youíre starving for him.
& every memory just leaves you a bigger hole in your heart.
You wish his scent would be stuck on you.
But you know youíd be pulling at your skin trying to get it off you.
You stop talking to your friends, & they get worried.
& they to try comfort you, but they just make you feel worse.
Because they think they know, but they donít they donít have a damn clue.
Today was just one of those days.
Where everything I did reminded me of you.
& every song I heard somehow related to you.
I hate days like today.
Because they remind me of the one thing I dont have.YOU
I've been laying here all night.
Listening to the rain.
Talking to my heart & trying to explain.
Why sometimes I catch myself wondering what might have been.
Yes I do think about you, every now & then.
This is for the broken hearted.
I know how you feel.
Empty, betrayed, & no happiness whatsoever.
You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help.
But you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse.
You feel like your heart is falling apart.
But not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too.
You don't think it will ever end.
& no matter what he has done to you.
It feels impossible to stop loving him.
& everyone wonders why, if he hurt you so much.
Why do you still love him?
That's the confusing part, you don't know why.
You just do, & the people who hurt you the most.
Are normally the ones you love the most.
& then, after a few weeks.
You finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again.
But you know inside that you're just going into denial mode.
& after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul & teary eyes.
You thought you got over him, but really, you just stopped showing it.
& you can't help but to show it again.
It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever.
& no one understands how you feel, & how deep you are hurt.
No matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them.
& even if it has, every broken heart is different.
They don't know the true pain you feel & carry each & everyday.
So you learn that basically you are alone with all this.
& the feeling starts to overwhelm you, & suddenly you just break down.
Right there, because you know you've had enough.
The tears just instantly start flowing.
& you're to the point where you don't care who see's.
Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed.
& so many days being haunted by the scars & fear of rejection.
& in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any.
& it's not going to bring him back.
If you ever even had him in the first place.
After about a million tears have been cried.
You finally pull yourself back together & keep going.
Your throat starts to clench & your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back.
Everyone says, "It will be okayÖĒ
But you know it won't, & thatís the truth, it wonít.
& you look back on all of the hurt you had from this.
& you realize that people are horrible.
You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you're okay.
So now every time you see him.
You know you still love him.
& you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for him to love you back.
You wonder how one person could have caused all of this...